I never have much to say when I am pregnant. And what little I do want to get off my chest, usually fits nicely in a Facebook status. Hence, the four months of silence.
Life around here has been good.
Rich in friendship and community.
I've been on bed rest for two weeks now.
So, others are taking care of my children, fixing our food, cleaning my house.
It's been hard to let go of my responsibilities, without also feeling worthless and guilty...but it's also been a relief.
Guilt mixed with gratitude is sort of a weird place to be.
Maybe I will talk more another time about the wrestling that has gone on in my heart for the better part of this pregnancy...relinquishing ideals and expectations, mourning things that have changed, anticipating new life that is coming to us...but for now, I just want to keep it light.
In just a short time, we will be welcoming twin GIRLS into our family.
I'm happy to be back, in whatever capacity.
With millions of blogs out in cyberspace, I appreciate that you read and comment on mine.
And I am so thankful for the deep, real friendships that have sprung up from here!